Today is the day I need to do this. Why today? Since this has happened I haven't been ready or willing to do this, also I have awaken just about every night of nightmares remembering it over and over again, and remembering not a whole lot about anything else. But this morning was the first morning I awakened with a dream of my Dad and actually remembered him, I remembered My DAD! I finally can remember the Dad I grew up with and not just the sick and dying one. I remember loving and admiring him so much. I remember loving sitting and listening to him in the car, listening in the other room, or sitting down with him and listening to him go off on his tangents, something he was so passionate about he would just talk about it for hours. Talk about dreams, hopes, desires, history, politics, books, the church, anything. He loved to talk and I loved to just listen. He was so wise and I just admired his opinion. Now if his opinion was any different then what I thought, we had ourselves a nice BIG LOUD Debate. I loved to debate with him, and I would like to think he did too. He was truly one of the only people that I feel who could understand me! He knew always just what to say to make me feel better. Even if was just agreeing with me, on something everyone just thought was crazy. Daddy always hugged me, kissed me on the cheek and told me he loved me. Even being miles and miles away from family. He would give me a call and make sure I knew he was proud of me. And to that I cherish to this day. Something I will give to my children... Always hug and kiss them and tell them the love I have for them. I have many memories of him reading and studying the scriptures. He wise about many things, but the most was the church. He knew and loved the gospel, and taught it to me. I knew his testimony of the gospel and the plan of salvation. I remember reading the scriptures often as a family, and him explaining it all to me. I loved listening to him. I loved watching him treat My Mom as a QUEEN. He truly and deeply loved her and showed her that daily. He always complemented her, going to church, I remember my mom walking out ready in her Sunday best and him always telling her how amazing she looked. And always the memory of Christmas morning my dad always pulling the last present out of some hiding place in the room, normally a nearby plant, and giving her jewelry. I knew from growing up they loved each other, loved to be together, (they did everything together), they were best friends! I just hope that my marriage can be filled with that much love, romance, and friendship. I hate having to explain My Dad in words, for I am not very good at writing and explaining my thoughts. But if I were to explain the man he was for my children... I would say, he was goofy, confident, passionate, wise, loving, always there for you, he knew all and wouldn't tell you any different, very good looking, loved by all, stubborn.... He was My Daddy, who I love very much and I miss him everyday. But I am glad I knew him and knew the love he had for me.
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Well, I haven't updated in awhile, and I a will start to catch up what time has passed since my last post. So much has happened... Good and Bad! It has been so emotional since my last post. I am really understanding the term, " When Life gives you lemons make lemonade." So to who ever reads this blog family and friends, I am going to be updating this for purposes of my own journaling, and being so far away from all the family and friends, I want you all to still feel connected to us. So check often I hope to be caught up before the end of the year.
Friday, July 8, 2011
This is a little late, but on June 23rd, Luke and I hit our 4 year Anniversary. We weren't able to be together this year because of his deployment. The time has gone by so quickly and we both have endured so much with each other. We have 2 wonderful boys, have joined the US Army, lived all around the states, and then everything in between. I had to pull some of the pics from our wedding day and some other ones I found of us together. Which I have noticed we don't take many pictures of us together. Which will be my new goal to get alot more taken of us in the future...
Now as deployment is coming to an end.. Can you believe it, it has almost been a whole year since he has left. Anyways, we are so much stronger from it. I have decided deployment can either make a couple or brake them. In our case we are so much stronger from it. We are so much in love with each other then ever before. And both excited to hold one another again.
Well, I love you honey. And can't wait for the many years of torturing to come... LOL! Eternity Baby! Happy Anniversary Honey! XOXOXOXO See you soon!